I know from my message box that some of you are upset with me for going on this massive hiatus. Especially after completing that dreaded question from 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind. I can reassure you that my disappearance has little to do with my last post! I’ve literally been way too busy to find any small amount of time to write anything interesting. If there has been an opportunity to write I just haven’t cared enough to write. My creative edge has hit a stand still since I’m back at university and all. No time to read, write, colour or dream — I know, it’s a sad life I live at the moment. I’ve been convincing myself that I can go on with this type of lifestyle for another year and a half (Finishing school April 2014, hopefully!) I’m going to try and get back into actually posting on here again. I think I might dedicate myself to finishing the 50 Questions, do a book review possibly and participate in some sort of a photo-a-day challenge.
13. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
I can honestly say that I was holding on to the broken rollercoaster of my past relationship. It ended almost 2 years ago but I found it hard to move on from it. The break up itself was hard to face considering I felt it should’ve happened years before. My own insecurities and young age held the safety net beneathe me for a long time. I didn’t want to write about it in my blog but when I skimmed the 50 questions a while back I knew when it came to this question that I would have to face the inevitable.
Only within the last year have I come to terms with the past. I stumbled upon a whole creepy folder of love letters in my email. I knew it was time, and this would be the last tear of the band-aid, so to speak. I went through a few and read them laughing at the puppy love streamed across my computer screen. Of course, it’s always nice to read romanticized opinions of yourself but really a person can only take so much. Eventually I got to the fifth or sixth email and decided to shut the door entirely by mass deleting the folder.
Letting go of this piece of me has allowed me to grow as a person. I used to look at it as a burden and a disappointment of sorts but I can truly say I’m grateful for it happening this way. If you asked me 5 years ago where I thought I’d be 5 years from then I would’ve painted this fantasized monumental idea of a perfect life. Since the ties have been severed I’ve been able to challenge myself in ways never thought imaginable before. I may sound selfish but I’ve been able to focus on me and what I want out of life. Being able to laugh, have fun with friends and simply experience everything that comes my way is absolutely what I deserve.
6. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I would do absolutely everything differently. I am probably one of the most self-conscious people ever. If I’m not resisting doing something wacky or outgoing, I’m either doubting myself and wondering what others are thinking. Sometimes I feel guilty and get consumed with wanting answers to questions once the downward spiral begins. I only feel completely comfortable if I have the approval of those I’m ‘performing’ for. I’m pretty sure I would feel much more at ease if I felt no judgement from others.
Are you self-conscious? What would you do if no one was judging you?
Okay, so I work in a bookstore and have noticed that everyone is going crazy for the new compilation that the boys from The Buried Life have written. Everyone loves the idea of creating a list of ‘Thing To Do Before You Die’ or also known as a Bucket List. To be honest, I did something like this prior to ever knowing about The Buried Life’s television show or webpage.
It happened back last August after meeting up with a friend of mine from high school. We hadn’t really seen each other in a long time but I was totally into the idea of reconnecting. He told me about his Day Zero Project and tried to convince me as to what it was all about. So what is it you ask? Well, keep reading and I’ll tell you what’s up!
Basically you pick 101 things to challenge yourself to do within a 1001 days. These things can be really anything you want from: donating blood to making a wish at 11:11. When I was trying to come up with 101 things to do I started running short of what to do at like 60 – 70 goals. Luckily, on the site there are links to help you with creating your list. You can browse random lists, use the idea finder or see featured lists by topic.
Once you’ve created your list, you can make friends and follow each other as you complete your tasks. You can maybe even give a little encouragement to your Day Zero buddies or possibly tag team a similar task you both have. As you accomplish tasks you can mark them as completed, in progress or not completed. For instance, I am trying to collect $1000 as one of my personal challenges. As I collect the money, I add a note each pay day to remind myself how much I placed aside and on what day. You can keep track how long it takes you to complete the task or add a small note about completing it. Also, there is a small section for you to put items you want to complete in your lifetime. These items don’t have a set time limit but they’re just something you might want to achieve in the future. There are great features where you can hide certain goals on your list or if needed, an edit feature if you want to change anything on your list. The site is totally free and it’s a great way to connect with others who want to be a little adventurous.
If you’re interested in trying this out check out the link below. If you decide to try it out you can add me as a friend.
My Day Zero Project